Desire

It's been a long time, nearly a week (ok only 5 days) since "The One" and I have had sex. I have been out of town alone in motel room. My first night home he didn't come to bed till long after I had gone to bed. Tonight he is playing a game, ignoring me. I can't say as I'm particularity horny but I do seem to be desirous of attentions I am not receiving.

"The Other" although online, isn't particularly a good conversationalist tonight. Seems very distracted and as if the conversation is merely in the way of things he'd rather be doing.


I was reading the adventures of Goose and Gander tonight and imaging how fun sex play with theater would be. "The One" and I have often talked about my desires to role-play in the bedroom (or really anywhere). Nothing has ever been done aside from talking about it. I have a very adventurous sexual streak. I want to try almost everything. I want to answer the door and invite the pizza man in. I want to be "raped" in the quiet area of a park. I want to be the French maid, or the prostitute, or the nurse who comes to give a sponge bath. I want to have sex in public bathrooms. I want to do it in the outdoor hot tub. I want to be laced in rope harnesses and beaten with wooden paddles. I want to be the slave girl in the sexual emporium. I want to be the waitress who serves everything. I want the passion to be so fun that it's nearly all we can think about. I want the memories to be so vivid that the shit eating grins are perpetual. I want to do it all.

It also brought me around to thinking how much I want a woman again. I like sex, I like men, I have to admit I'm very fond of the way a penis feels inside me, but I'm massively attracted to women and I want to find one that fits me just right.