What "The One" and I have together seems like it is completely perfect. I can't figure out where the flaw is that would make me also want "The Other". It doesn't make any sense to me. "The One" and I don't argue about money or how to raise the child or how to clean the house or really anything other than in good natured jest that makes us both giggle. We compliment each other all the time and 98% of the time it's even sincere. He is sweet, kind and caring. He helps to clean the house, raise the child, cook the meals. He is working on his career. He gives me sexual pleasure. He snuggles me on the couch or the bed and holds me when I don't feel well or I'm sad. If it weren't for my sick desires for "The Other" then everything would be perfect. Completely perfect. And because everything is so perfect it frustrates me that I want something else, Even while I want what I have.

It's not having what you want. It's wanting what you've got.