I'm rather consistently inconsistent. Sometimes my sexual appetite is raging and I can't get enough sometimes I'd rather knaw off my own leg then engage in sexual activity. I wonder why that is. More over I wonder why I am the same with just about everything in my life. I'm one of those people who always does the opposite of something they just say. If I claim I won't talk to "The other" I end up talking to him immediately after that. If I tell him we need to behave I immediately break the rules, but if I tell "The One" that I'm going to break rules then I really have no interest in breaking the rules and I behave all night long. Is it a forbidden fruit syndrome? Do I need to do things just to prove my own words wrong?

It's an interesting conundrum, and the reason I'm talking about it is because once again after telling "The Other" that we needed to behave I broke rules and I enjoyed it immensely and felt guilty and told "The Other" that I would be taking a break from talking to him for a while (I seem to need these breaks so I don't run off and screw him till he dies of snu snu. I can't really figure out what it is that has me so in lust with "The Other". I don't know what it is that keeps drawing me back, but something seems to.

"The One" and I had incredible sex twice today. The first was touched off after spending all night in prolonged heavy sexual tension with "The Other" I was so horny that when I crawled into bed this morning I nearly tore off "The One's" clothes and ravaged him in his sleep. The other was after "The One" came home from work. He was moody and grumpy and looked like he was about to cry. In my guilt ridden state of wanting to do "The Other" all day, I thought for sure that "The One" knew how I felt and that I was thinking about telling him I was going to run off and have wild passionate sex with "The Other" but that is just paranoia (and I actually have no intentions of running off with "The Other") so to make "The One" more cheerful I started playing with him, and obviously it led somewhere. Somewhere good. REALLY GOOD!

"The One" and I had a great conversation about him bringing home a hot blonde for us to play with. He's so cute when he's joking. I wonder if he knows I'm more than half serious when I say that it's ok for him to have another girl as long as she's hot, bisexual, and willing to play with me too?