I'm up waiting. I should have gone to bed an hour ago, but instead I got online to "check my email" Knowing I would wait for "The Other" to come online. Knowing I would be sitting here out of things to do waiting around to just say,"Hey". What I'll mean by that, "Hey", is "I'm doing much better now and I think I can talk to you without wanting make you give snu snu till I crush your pelvis" or "I think that we can hold a conversation and I can control myself, because I have given myself time to relax, calm down, and general reevaluate why it is that I never give into those urges" so here he is and here I am and here we are talking, again. I really missed talking. I'm glad I can take the time to calm down and control myself, and I'm more happy that I can allow myself to be his friend and more importantly allow him to be mine once I'm ok with myself again.