ok so it's probably not strickly the pheremones, because I'm thinking about "The Other" again and I haven't been anywhere near him to smell him all day. It's probably hormones too. Of couse it could just be that I'm in those fertile days and I'd pretty much take sex anyway I could get it about now. I want someone to make me "happy" yeah I don't mean happy I mean "HAPPY". I would love for "The One" To take care of this for me. But he's been a bit on the moody side lately (hmm. . . think it might have something to do with the blowjob I gave to someone else that he swears he's ok with) That and he isn't here. He's been at work all day. ALL DAY and now that he's off work he's out with one of his friends. Don't get me wrong I don't begrudge this friend anything as he's "The One's" best friend from growing up and only comes to town on occasion. It's just that I'm damn horny and I want someone to take care of it for me. I can't even call up "The Other" right now and play around (an excersise in frustration at the moment) because he's at work too.

I know, I know, at least they both work. better than what I could go for. But I WANT SEX! ok I'm going to go read a book, maybe take a cold shower, something like that. I'll be fine. I just have to realise it's only hormones and in a couple days it'll pass. PLEASE GOD LET IT PASS!