I'm sure hell is enjoying it's newly paved road. You know that business "The One" was going to start? Yeah he still has every intention of doing it only that he isn't actually doing anything to make it happen. The deadlines we set for making things happen are so close now that there is no hope of achieving our goals by that time. I'm rather disappointed about it. And you know how it goes one disappointment leads to others and being more picky and it's kinda putting a damper on the ol' sex drive. Which is really to bad, because even if I'm not real happy at him at this moment I'm still in love with him. And more importantly I still want to be in love with him.

I have been thinking a lot about "The Other". I have a bond with him that I don't fully understand But I understand that he is somehow important to the transition that I need to make sometime soon in my life. I'm not sure if by accepting openly that I have an extra spiritual entity it will make things easier for me or if I'll get really sick and need to heal all over again. But either way it should be easier.


"The One" and I have been talking about doing a threesome. It's every man's fantasy right? Well truth to tell it's mine too.