I am in a dream marriage. "The One" is working his tail off to make my life easier, and more fun. And on top of all that he is making sure there is time for snuggling. He is the epitome of what a loving husband should be. I am hopelessly completely in love with him, it's just that sometimes I have these nagging suspicions that it's not what's it's supozed to be. I'm sure it's just that I'm not right in the head. But i feel like sometimes he is living a double life and I'm just too dense to notice. I can't imagine that he is actually doing these things, but I sometimes wonder all the same. Is that a normal thing to have happen? Does every woman wonder such things about a man that seems to good to be true for years on end? Oh well, I guess it's my pleasure.

I know I've said this before but I really think that "The Other" and I share a soul. Perhaps I was never meant to meet him. . . I mean how awkward is it to meet your own soul walking around in someone else. The good news is that I at least like my soul when I do meet it. Don't know what's up with "The Other" latley. Haven't had any contact that wasn't as short and consise as possible lately. I tried to break our mental link the other day. . . it's disturbing to be able to know what someone else is thinking. I think it might have worked and I feel really lonely without his occasional thought poping into my head. I think that has a lot to do with the moodiness I've been expeiencing as of late. Perhpas it is the grieving process for the loss of a conection. Not that I didn't want to loose the connection. It's hell on tha marriage after all, but I really will miss the connection. You see it all started the other night when "The Other" and I were having a disscusion via yahoo. "The Other" sent me an email greeting card that hit a little too close to home and then the ending note was something about me always being a big part of his life. It was sweet really but it set off something in me that I wasn't ready to deal with and when we ended our conversation that night it was almost like physical pain that he was leaving and I thought to myself "This is just too painful, it needs to stop" So I deleted and blocked his name from my IMs and haven't heard anything from him since except blurps through a mutual online group. Unfortunatly I don't like the silence