"The One" and I have been getting it on like rabbits lately. It's actually a nice change from the usual pace. Ok wait let me spell it out a little clearer. . . We DON'T have a usual pace. In the five some years we have been married, It's been either many times a day, horny like we're still dating and in the prime of our love-making years, or it's been dried up like the hot dusty deserts that kill off the "river of love" So I'm glad we are in an "I want you so bad I don't care that the neighbors are watching" phase. It's like everything can be solved, ignored, or eradicated by the simple passion of touching the other person. Have I mentioned I really like this phase?

Last night online I was talking with "The Other" and we got into a nice philosophical discussion about the way god works and psychic energy. He is like the brain food that I crave. Also I discovered a deep mental connection that I've really known about all my life. I think perhaps that in the afterlife "The Other" and I are going to discover that we are actually the same soul. I also think the subtle sexual tension (subtle like the intestinal flu) I have with "The Other" is creating the stronger sex drive with "The One". I know this is going to sound a little nuts, but "The Other" is good for my relationship with "The One". I always want to be better for "The One" after hanging out with "The Other". And I think "The Other" would just kick himself if he knew how much he's done to save my love for "The One".

Will and Grace was playing a sleazy yet funny episode tonight about Grace having a three-some. This got my mind churning. I think it would be absolutely marvelous to have a three-some with a guy and a girl. (yeah, I know. I'm every man's fantasy) but I would want it to be an actual relationship and not just a hot steamy one nighter (that's my girl parts talking and you know it) Anyway, the way I imagine it would be me with my face full in the chick and me getting pumped from behind. (why am I telling you this? Oh yeah, because I'm anonymous and can get away with it) But I fantasize about it often. In fact it's one of the main fantasies I use to get me over the top during that "I'm going to tear your clothes off and take you right here right now" phase. Is this wrong? Is it some sign that I'm dike if I fantasize about women while getting it on with the man?

so the moral of tonight's story? Hell if I know, that's why I'm writing this damn blog.