Obvious Nothing

I've decided I hate men and want to be a straight up lesbian. . . Except that whole penis thing, I like penis.

It's "The One's" birthday. He stayed home and slept and cleaned and when I got home we ordered a pizza for dinner. I made many a hints and suggestion as to things I would like to do to him. I knew I had succeeded in letting him know what it is I was interested in when pretty much told me told me there was no way I was getting any and I might as well go fuck "The Other". It wasn't at all the response I wanted, but it made it clear that he at least understood I was horny and looking for his sexual attention. "The One" and his friends decided to have a birthday party, at the store. I went along, although I wasn't included in the games, and truth to tell I wasn't very interested in the games.

"The Other" was at the store when we got there (someone has to be there) and he and I flirted. But a while into it I realized I wasn't going to get what I wanted by flirting and hinting at desires to use the corporate bathroom for sexual acts. I had no intention of doing anything with "The Other" and when I realized that I couldn't even flirt the desire for sex quickly faded all together.
I was left with an empty void that should have been longing but was just undersirable, a mix of sour grapes and self disgust.