Flogging

It took some time and some conjoling but I got "The One" to go out to a wonderful dinner with my family. Then the lovechild and "The One" and I settled into a hotel room and watched cartoons till the lovechild fell asleep. I started to get frisky and "The One" didn't seem to object. Not too far into things I mentioned that I had ended things with "The Other" and all the fun was cut short right there while "The One" asked all sorts of why and are you sure questions. It wasn't until I had gotten rather testy and demanded that I was ok that we were allowed to continue with the romantic fun of having a room. It was pretty fun. We followed up our romantic evening with breakfast and an hour or so in the indoor Water park. I'm exhausted and sore, but those waterslides sure were fun.

So yeah, I did tell "The Other". I called him and asked him to get online and chat with me, Mostly because I didn't want anyone listening on the phone, and I just couldn't stand to hear his voice as I told him, having those moments to compose yourself and only written words can sure make things easier, even if it does make it seem very cold and calculated. (This was before he worked and most of the day before dinner and a hotel room with "The One") He seemed to take it ok, but it was online and I didn't hear any of the emotions voiced, that and I'm not sure he really believed me. He'd have good reason not to believe me. I've told him it's off enough times I hardly believe me. I'm sure he's rather confused as just the night before we lay on the couch snuggling, kissing, and telling each other "I love you" like broken records. I do love him. I always have, probably always will. Haven't talked to him since I left work yesterday. In a turn of that whole I hardly believe me thing, kinda funny ha ha, last night when I found out I had a hotel room for the night and I called "The One" and he was tired and wanted to go home, I thought about asking him to pass the phone to "The Other" because by gosh I was gonna use that room. I wouldn't have because my extended family was in the room at the time, and how pathetic would it be to ask him out to a room the same day I tell him it's off. . . But the thought crossed my mind.

There's a new lady in my life. I'm calling her Sylvia for now. I'm not sure if things will work out with her, but I'm being careful and taking it one day at a time. If things go really well I'm hoping she'll be around for the rest of my life.