What I want!

Talking to "The One" in person about what I want and who I want to be sexually is very difficult. It ends up with both of us feeling hurt and neither of us finishing what it was we meant to say. So I'm going to do it here instead, where I can think it through and not falter when I see that "Oh god, here she goes again" look in his eyes. I also think it would be very helpful to clarify what I want for myself. So this is what I want. In an ideal situation, any of the ideas and wants may change based on knowledge of how others feel and consequences of having said wants.

My Ideal Love Life:
Continue my loving relationship with "The One"- this is the foremost on my list of priorities. Nothing else on my list of wants is valid without this one. In fact I don't want to just continue this relationship, I want it to grow and flourish and have fun exciting sexual adventures and those moments of quiet peacefulness when you remember in exquisite detail why you are so in love.

Delve into a sexual relationship with "The Other"- I know this is the one that "The One" has the hardest problem with. I'm not sure if it is because this one is real and tangible or if it's that there was some deceit earlier on in the forming of this relationship or if it's fear that he will lose me to "The Other" or if it's merely a threat to his masculinity. I don't know why exactly that he fears this want of mine, only that he does. I want to respect "The One's" feelings on this matter, but I'm not sure if I can. I'm not sure if there is a way at this point to just walk away. But I can at least keep things from progressing any farther, for a while.

Find "The Woman"- What I mean by "The Woman" is to find just the right woman who falls in love with both "The One" and "The Other" but is bi-sexual and is in love with me also. This could be a bit tricky because this would involve everyone being sexually interested in each other and not just that but falling in love. Which is really a complex and time consuming event.

Relationship Dynamics- ok so now that there is "The One", "The Other", "The Woman" and myself, the way I would like it to work would be to have "The One" and I live happily in our almost normal life and have "The Woman" come over and play with us and be our great friend and sometimes lover (maybe eventually getting to the stage of having her live with us, maybe) and then I'd like to have "The Other" on the side. "The Other" would be a lot like "The Woman" only that he and "The One" probably wouldn't be involved as anything other than platonic friends, as from what I gather neither is interested, and truthfully I'd be WAY jealous if they hooked up. They have more in common then either has in common with me, and I'd be afraid somewhere along the line I'd end up being majorly left out of their non-sexual activities. So "The Other" would be on the side, But I'd share him with "The Woman" if she was interested.

So pretty much that is what I want long term in my sexual life. Maybe I'll find out that I'm not bisexual when I start delving into things. Maybe I'll find out that I actually just play for the other team, in which case everything would change, but I don't see that as likely because I'm a big fan of the penis and it's role in sex. (It's incredibly liberating to refer to myself as bisexual instead of just sexually deviant)

In more short term goals. I'd like to start developing my sexual relationship with "The Other" and start in the friendship phase with someone who has the potential to be "The Woman" but those short term goals mean nothing without the approval, support, and loving relationship with "The One".

so um. . . That's what I'd like. What would you like?