I have the most wonderful husband in existence. Yes, I know I was all pissy in the last post. Who cares, that was two days ago. I can't stay mad for two days. Heck I normally can't stay mad for more than five minutes. . . Well maybe ten or twenty. I am so in love with "The One" that I wonder what the hell is wrong with my sick little brain. I can't believe that I ended up so lucky and that I am stupid enough to take it for granted for even one minute. Of course I do take it for granted. I take it for granted all the time. I'm taking it for granted right now. Instead of curling up beside him while he blissfully slumbers away his long hard day of work and play, I'm here thinking about him and a dirty Christmas card.

While shopping today I came across the dirtiest Christmas card I've ever seen. No it wasn't just dirty. . . It was DIRTY. It was so dirty that I couldn't even give it to "The One" if we were alone in our bedroom with candles lit and only our undies on. So instantly I thought how much fun it would be to send it to "The Other" of course this is an absurd idea, I mean what if he opened it in front of his mom? Or really in front of anyone. And how bad would it suck to have it completely confirmed that we are more than friends once we aren't even talking anymore. But none the less the thought crossed my mind and I got a small giggle out of idea.

Oh how I miss talking with "The Other". Something exciting will happen during my day and I think how cool it would be to tell him, to share that enthusiasm, but then I remember I'm trying not to think about him, trying not to be dependent on telling him how much my life rocks. Kinda sad to lose that friendship, but I wouldn't be content for it to be just friendship.

Have I mentioned hot lesbians lately? Yeah I probably have, but I haven't really been putting any serious thought into them. I'm way too tangled in the men to consider adding to the trouble. But I still fantasize about them occasionally and I still say to myself "someday" I don't know what it is that I'm expecting on this "someday" that I talk about, but whatever it is, it'll be great.