The Apparent Truth (How does it look from the outside?) It looks like I am a very happily married woman with a great guy friend. Plain and simple it looks like a good friendship that has never become anything more, although it's obvious that perhaps there could be.

The Real Truth (What it is it really like for me, on the inside?) It feels like I could have everything I've ever wanted, but won't or can't. What I really feel about it is love. I love them both, with all my heart, and that's all the truth I know about it.

The Spirit Truth (If this were serving a spiritual purpose in your life, what would it be?) Spiritually speaking, as according to every religion I've ever known it's a sin. Horribly wrong and I should fight against the sin. From a non-religous spiritual point of view it may be a very important lesson I need to learn in my life.

The Shadow Truth (What is the dark side, the thing you don't want to admit you're getting from this?) The dark side is that I can't make the real truth (how I feel about it) mesh with the spirit truth (how I'm supposed to feel about it) It's a dirty dark little secret that I hate having to keep secret and hate having to feel guilty about. But even more so I find a fun exciting adventure in doing something that feels right but is "naughty" What I get from it is attention. Male attention, which is something girls want and desperatly seek even when they won't admit to it.

The Fairy-Tale Truth (If this were in a fairy tale, known or unknown, what would it be?) I don't think the fairy tale that covers this situation has been written yet. . . But it will someday and it's basic plot will be this. Woman loves two men, both men love her, trouble happens, girl gets to know herself and be ok with others not being ok and in the end finds it's ok to love both and to be loved by both. That's how my fairy tale ending would be.

The Unsaid Truth (What remains to be said?) It all remains unsaid, except here.

And now ... Your turn. What is your truth?