I wrote this big long post today, and I thought I saved it as a draft, but apparently I didn't. Which was ok because it said things I wasn't sure I wanted to say out loud. Or rather it said things I wanted to say but just not in the proper context of how I wanted to say them.

The gist of this now missing post was that I wanted to do "The Other" today but I didn't. Not because of rules forbidding that kind of stuff in the house, but because I don't want to have to hide and sneak and lie. I want it to be right and ok and have time to explore when/if things come to that.

"The One" has been stepping up to the bat a lot lately. I think when I told him that I need him to snuggle me and watch movies with me and talk with me more that he took me seriously. I really enjoy it. I really enjoy him when we have the chance to be together and talk and share our interests.

I almost bought the most awesome lesbian shirt today that said, "If you lick it they will come" Aside from coming to grips with the idea that I am bi-sexual and allowing myself to see that as ok, nothing has happened in the finding "The Woman" department. I can't say as this is a huge surprise, being that I'm not looking too hard. Occasionally the idea of having a woman fondle me, holding breasts between my fingers or sliding my hands over the curves of her hips seems almost overwhelming, but I'm willing to wait. I'd rather have it right.