You know how sometimes you say something to someone and then you realize that you really mean it, and it catches you off guard? I had a situation like that today. It occurred within the following excerpt of a conversation. . . Names have been changed to protect the not quite innocent.


Me: I still sometimes come to "The One" all sheepish when I tell him what occurred (part of the communication thing) and he's all cool with it, always
Me: It sometimes wierds me out a little
Her: I could never do that with "Her Husband"- thinking what if I helped him hook up with a lover- so I could never ask him to do that for me- we are both way too jealous/selfish/insecure?
Me: it's probably mostly fear
Me: "The One" got over his fear and now it's all ok
Me: I'd love to find him a lover
Me: I think it would be so cool
Her: heck yeah- sides we don't have someone like "The Other" in our lives- it takes a pretty special someone
Me: to see him come home with the biggest shit eating grin you can imagine happier than anything. . . Yeah I'd so help him seduce her, romance her, whatever it took
Her: you are a complex and multi faceted open minded person
Me: don't you want "Her Husband" to be the happiest man alive?


I realized two things from that conversation. 1)I am rather wierded out with "The One's" sudden change to being almost more than ok with everything. Don't get me wrong, I love that "The One" and "The Other" get along. 2) I would like for "The One" to experience the thrill of a new lover, the happiness of having everything he wants. I'd love to see that grin of ecstasy and the bright twinkle in his eye that proclaimed utter satisfaction. I'd love to smile to myself knowing he's truly the happiest man alive.